Thanks for the interesting comment!
Mmm, suicide is something that was talked about a lot with me in 2011 and 2012 because I was working in mental health, and had contact with a lot of people suffering illnesses like depression, bi-polar and borderline personality disorder - all of which often involved suicide ideation. I was also living with someone who was suicidal off and on, and it was quite stressful - particularly when I was called upon to do a few interventions.
I think for me, suicide isn't so much a moral issue. I'm not especially religious, and I find the idea of hell and heaven and anything in between a little hard to believe in, and I struggle to understand how someone who is so desperate and so ill that the only solution they can contemplate is taking their own life could then be "punished" further than they already have been by being sent to purgatory.
I mean, when I have had clients who have been sexually abused as children, who have psychologically abusive partners and families, who suffer from unbelievably complex mental illness and both mental and physical disabilities and who have degenerative, incurable diseases that are impeding their lives more and more every day. I had one client who had ALL of those problems. ALL of them.
I'm very sorry to hear that you had suicide ideation, but I'm very glad to hear that you have recovered. I found it kind of interesting that you say that you "don't ever thinl [you'd] be allowed to go through with it". I don't think anyone would be "allowed" to go through with suicide. I don't think they're asking permission. The people who do ask for permission, e.g. voluntary euthanasia cases for very very ill patients aren't allowed to do so, let alone your average, everyday suicidal person. I think that people who are truly suicidal, and who do not have the desire or the ability to seek adequate assistance, will find away, "allowed" to or not.
Anyway, finally - I'm absolutely fine, but thank you for the concern. As the description says, it was just about me making inappropriate "suicide" jokes all the time as a way for me to cope with difficult things that I had to experience every day at work. Sometimes humour is the only way to cope with things that otherwise really are quite serious. I, personally, am not suicidal, and the only bad things I would have been preventing is myself getting too down about having to deal with really heavy issues every day as my job.
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